Guidance or Nonsense

What does one do when one is told something by one’s psychic guide which one doesn’t want to believe ? I’m rattled and a bit annoyed, to be honest. After months of giving thought to my pending bike trip, I’m told that I’m not going. Or if I go, it will be shorter than planned. And if I go, it won’t be what I thought. And…I shouldn’t go – it’s dangerous.

Well, I know it’s dangerous. And I don’t mean to downplay the danger, but I don’t obsess over it either, just like the other dangers in life. If I thought too much about how dangerous life can be, I probably wouldn’t get out of bed in the morning. I plan to be cautious and watchful and not do things that my gut says are ‘too dangerous’ – by nature, I am pretty conservative. And I know the trip won’t magically open my mind, change me into a unicorn and lay out a rainbow for me to follow with a pot of gold at the end. I expect it to be hard physically, mentally and emotionally. But through these hard challenges I feel I will learn that I can do hard things, and that while I am doing hard things, I can still see beauty and feel appreciation and gratitude. On the whole, the trip isn’t terribly different from everyday life here – it’s just a bit more challenging. And I haven’t actually attached a lot to the outcome of the trip – I haven’t envisioned it in a particular way and have remained open to the experience when it comes (as a matter of fact, it’s interesting how little I ‘see’ when I think about the trip – perhaps I’m *not* actually going?!).

I’ve used the term ‘psychic guide’ loosely, as I’ve seen a psychic (this one) exactly twice in my life. I had a positive experience the first time, back in January, and I felt she was accurate in reading things that have happened to me and also seeing someone who has passed. I booked today’s appointment upon return from the January appointment as I felt it would be good to go back in several months to check in. Today’s session was rating ‘ok’ before we talked about my trip, which was at the very end. I didn’t get any big revelations or messages, a few things that I should watch for or anticipate that I will know, of course, when they happen.  If they don’t happen I will likely forget she mentioned them.

I feel the temptation to dismiss this message I heard about my trip. It would be so easy to simply forget about it and continue planning and just take the trip. After all, not everyone has reacted positively when they heard of my plans to cycle 2300 miles in four countries, by myself, and camping to boot. When someone like my mother says the trip is a bad idea and I’d be foolish to do it, my stubborn determination rises and my commitment to go hardens.  But my gut is on high alert, feeling very sensitive after hearing the passionate voice relaying the message from her guides. I’d be a fool to say she is wrong, I can’t know if she is wrong or right. For now, I leave it for future resolution. Let go, let god, as they say.